A few months ago I heard this song "Skyscraper" by Demi Lovato and I fell in love with it. She is only 18-19 years old but already gone through so many things that someone that age shouldnt go through. I came across this "movement" called Love is Louder ,that she joined.
The movement was orignally started by actress Brittany Snow in september 2010.It was basically to try to help people who feel mistreated or misunderstood in any way and to stop the numbers of suicide. To let people know that Love IS Louder than bullying, deppresion, emtyness,the inner voices, people pointing and laughing at you, and so on.
Out of this movement,Demi started a new movment beside this. She is known for recently getting out of rehab for eating disorder and self cutting. Her movement is called Love is Louder than the Pressuere of being Perfect. To help teenage girls to not get so caught up in looking "perfect". I think its a great movement for young girls.
When you look at all theese blogs that are on top 5 and that sort of things,and young girls reads them. I think it`s sad. These top-bloggers are girl in their 16-20 years,posting photos of them half naked,skinny as hell in small clothes. Maybe they don`t mean to send out bad signals,but they do. And I just hope that for those girls who feel this pressure gets to read about these two movements before it`s too late.
I`ve had shitty days, days where Ive been so deppressed. No one know because I never tell. Years ago I did some selfharming,(NOTE: Im not writing this to get attention,its a long time ago.) But I never was suicidal. I just wanted to feel some other pain then the pain I felt inside of me. I think some of my friends know. But I dont think they remember. I remember every bad thing thats been said to me through the last years from Elementry School. Everything, from my skin color, adoption, the way I look. And mainly,the this I burry down in me is things that Ive said or done to people. Things that have made people cry, or laugh or gotten mad about. Ive alwyas gone home and thought to myself"Why did they laugh?Was it because OF me or were they laughing WITH me`?"
I dont know why I feel this. Ive always felt it. This one feeling , the feeling of being alone, has gotten to me so bad sometimes. Its so hard to descirbe it. I can hang out with all of my good friends doing something fun and just for a second. If I look around and everyone is talking to eachother in pairs,and Im the only one that doesnt talk to anyone,just for that small second,it hits me again. Im alone.
There`s nothing to do with it. I guess I always will have that feeling and no one will understand. Maybe it`s easy for me to blame it on that Im adopted,but that`s between me and myself.
Anyways,I`ve been depressed and sad this last month and it has helped me to join the movement Love is Louder and to see all those 80 000 other people sharing what they think that Love is Louder than, it helps me in so many ways.
So I wish everyone could just check it out. You dont have to join it. Just browse through one day when things arnt going youre way. I promise. It will help. It did for me.
You can find it on Facebook, just search for Love is Louder and Love is Louder than the Pressure of being Perfect.
-Netty
